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my boyfriend can take snaps; all-seeing-eye and medusa eye
the slums of lindum.



things have gone from remembering daily, to every few days, to whenever i can. it's a bad habit i have been slipping into and i'm trying to get out of it quick too. the last week has been blurry and i only remember the laughs barely, and the faces i have seen faintly. i need a better memory, i really do.


one of my latest things i am into is surely the hidden treasure of thrash music and punk hardcore. last night and yesterday equally were very good for this craving of mine. the day began as usual with waking up to kisses and a tightening hug from my lovely boyfriend, and then having toast and coffee. little too no time to get ready always shortened by the problem of not knowing what to wear. things were finally decided upon, including two diy's that morning just to be comfortable. with some favourites opshop pieces.


the first bus was caught and the money spending began. i ran int some of the most lovely kids i know, and it was shannon's birthday. i am now cordially saying, 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY!' for the millionth time. the laughs rolled on and on and on as did the day and the sun making a hot and sweaty time of it all. when the boys wandered off and trudged back with cake and party hats it lit all our faces to a grin that was for sure.


and running into a lovely person i have not seen since schoolies week was also good. the day ended by me going to work to find out that i did not have to work, and inevitably got to go and join the rest of the people at the fort of fortitude valley for the rise and fall tour.
joined by blkout, anacxis and the hollow.


sooooooooo good! i loved it and the music was enlivening and amazing. though i must seemingly say the lovely things that have happened this week are easily ruined when a good friends texts you and you cannot reply because you are too poor to have a working phone, oh the tragedy!


in other words, my christmas shopping is well, half to nearly done and my plans for nye are found. so things can't be that bad. plus, theres always the good thing of having a lovely boy around most days to kill time with and just smile with. i am truly glad to have found and infatuation, and someone to share it with.

in the mean time, right now... my house and backyard is crawling with teenagers in swimmers. you see, i come home from working all day to find my little/not so little brother has a 'few' friends over which means twenty or so, for a swimming things, that is lets say, non-alcoholic because my father is here. how awesome this is, so many delusional looks from people at me, just sitting in the corner by the fireplace, typing away.
then again, dead ends is playing and entertaining me, and my dad did just nearly singe his eyebrows off trying to light the barbecue for them all.

entertaining atleast :)

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as this year draws to a close i really am becoming more slack with different things, time seems way to taken by the different things i do each day now.

though i have come to tell you of my weekend, and the joy it brought me.

my weekends start from the middle of the week now, not many other thing stand in the way. wednesday turned out to be one of the scariest days of my life.. my life was threatened by the creepiest looking guy i have ever seen because my boyfriend would not give him a cigarette. waiting for a friend to meet us at my corner shop because he didnt know how to drive to my house, i believe the words were 'give me a cigarette or i will fucking kill her' just lovely. he also was walking around the car park as we got into taylors car, and that was weird enough.

as soon as i got home, i was served with papers to say i was required in court for being such a nice person to a very old childhood friend. worst night of my life. literally.

the rest of that week was full of working and nothing much else. though one day was lovely. after a long day of work, i was met by a face i could never hate and we ventured to see paranormal activity, the creepiest movie alive. i dont think i will watch it again. i wince too much. then we got dinner and saw some lovely people.

the weekend started by finishing a long and strenuous shift, in which i felt rather upset alot of the time. but after calling levi on a short decision i stayed at his home, and between his sister and her friend, levi and i the laughs came strong and lasting. from quotes to random conversation and cheap drinks, im sure it will happen again. it was really really nice. some things that were said make me feel so lovely about everything going on between levi and i.

saturday began with a sleep in, though sleep did not commence until early hours of the morning, a short amount of time to get ready and then off to see people in town. many train rides, i am sure i know what time everyone comes now, haha. by the time we entered the city it was almost midday and a buying of cigarettes was in order. the fifty deck however, did not last us more than a day, when being generous overcame our thought of saving. one friend we ran into i had somehow managed to convince to cut his hair, which looks rather good now if i must say. at one stage a strange girl trying to be very indie decided she was going to lye on the ground and sleep, in the middle of the tow square, the people we were with had other ideas about this and it was quite entertaining. but hey, better us then the police, right? i wish i had more money that day so that i would have been able to go shopping, but oh well. running into numerous people was lovely and deciding to head to ipswich to see some people play was a good decision.

the sounds of in hearts wake, only sleeping, crime scene and another band were good to hear. it was also good to see some faces i had not seen in a long time. but none the less it was a joyous night. getting back to brisbane and having lots of energy drinks was good.

by the time we got home, it was pajama o'clock and pizza time.
then sleep.

sunday was filled with a large chill session, and a lovely swim to cool off, we also made pancakes and had some fun.
that brings me to today when i am dreading work and somehow looking forward to it also.

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the best start to a month that could have happened, the end of my schoolies phenomenon which left me to sleep for 16 hours straight and making many new friends. plus new things coming in and out of my life including friendships and relationships. things are flowing smoothly and i could not be happier. today in particular was spent waking up to lovely kisses and a smiling face. the rest of the day was spent with some gorgeous girls beside the beach and indulging in gummi bears and iced tea. running into some familiar faces and being read where the wild things are as if i were a child once more.

the day dragged out to leave the person i like so dearly to come home and sleep before a long days work tomorrow. though i would much rather be with him.

many things are going great, and as for being scared, im no longer as scared as i thought i would be. it was great to finally discover the fresh food market that happens every wednesday at the top of the city main street. i have been going past this event many times and have not bothered to check it out, but now i realise i have been missing out! you should check it out, the food is sensational.

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at this time, right now i am multi tasking between packing for the most drunken week of my life and writing this.

last night was the night i have been gearing up for, my senior formal and my graduation. its finally all over, an i am unbelievably relieved and nothing else. im excited and scared for whats ahead, but i think i will be okay.
i have had little sleep, and danced until 4am this morning. so i think i Will finish packing and head to bed

goodnight dears.

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hooded oversized t-shirt, blue white; wynnum opshops


in a number of ways, i feel accomplished. school is pretty much over, work is getting good, i feel well again and everything is going well. i am prepared for things i need to be ready for, and i am only anxious to find out results.

this morning as i sit over my muesli and watch cartoons i do wonder if this is what life after school will be like, i think it may. it is good, relaxing and i like it. just sitting around, having time to think and having a way of getting time to myself.

in most regards, from now on i will be less lazy with these posts, and i think i have begun to pick up a little already.

this weekend i would love to meet someone new, someone fun and someone interesting. please deliver them to me.

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if i was ever to be invited somewhere by someone, to a party perhaps. i would hope for the invitation to be this inviting, it is just fascinating. thank you j. penry! search him now!

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DEAD SET

i hate zombies and i hate gore
but it is so amazingly good!

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SORRY

little times of neglect and times of thought and self confusion, that is life as it is right now. excitement and dullness and everything in between at the one time.

a week, almost nine days since i have written and i do not feel obliged to rekindle my ways of this just yet. soon, hopefully i will. as time comes more easily and freely.

the last week was a battle and triumphant to say the least. time spent at school tick tocking the day away in class and out of class waiting for the end of the day to head home. friday was inevitably a wondrous hope because of these. the afternoon class began, i sat anxious to leave and as soon as it struck 2:40, i was out of there. the first bus home, getting changed and hen heading into town to meet some lovely individuals before heading off to the seaside.

the nine of us had many laughs and picked up some stragglers too. a frail middle aged lady was continuously antagonised by us, but she laughed it off. she was too sweet. drawings for birthday cards and little supplies of drinks and substances. i felt too sick to do a thing, but i pulled through. the thrill of getting there was crushed by having to wait for half an hour to get our bus to the apartment, but a ride came along soon enough and fixed everyones problems. it was a living clown car, literally.

the times continued until early morning with sand in between my tights and scraggly hair, feeling sick and lethargic i put myself to bed, to later be woken up by a friend using me as a sofa. my ribs still hurt a little. serious conversations i was not interested in and little thoughts streaming through my mind as if to keep me strangely distant and occupied from the rest. though a lovely boy kept me company digitally, with all my thought lifted and just left smiling continuously.

an inquisitive anna reading over my shoulder protested that he was my boyfriend and i had turned him down multiple times, that i did not like the flowers he had given me, or that he had funny hair. none of which are true in the slightest, and none of which have happened, though it was a laugh all the same. as were the random older people we saw at all hours in the morning doing exercise.

the moonlight hitting the water at 2am was amazing.


the next morning, strolls along the shore were relaxing and draining at the same time, but sitting under a large oak tree and making leaf rings were fun. so many different little conversations arose from the situations and travels times.

by the time we had returned to what looked familiar, it was midday and things were alive and rolling. running into numerous friends and getting bark thrown down my top by them was funny, but yet annoying. no plans had arisen as of yet, but they turned out to pop up easily.
as most people were heading to a popular band playing live, alot of us were left with nothing, or left dateless. so it was decided...

a girls night in, with lovely people and fun times.

after cooking up a batch of singapore noodles to eat, and having some grain waves it was time to get stuck into the initial shots that we had been waiting for. shot one, to not being stuck at a hot and sweaty gig surrounded by gross bogan emos and girls who just want a hardcore boyfriend. then the fun began, from walking like a wind up toy moved, feeding a snake its dinner and asking in the most annoying voice over and over 'you virgin?, you not virgin?'. many conversations included different topics such as sexual education, condoms and pet animals that no longer exist, it was a little weird i must admit. but strangely so comfortable.

pajamas and numerous hours spent dancing to old song in memory. and that lead to an even better sleep. those two lovely girls, shantelle and casey are amazing for spending it with me.

sunday was a drag heading home, and i watched movies all afternoon curled up in bed. much like a lazy cat.


the week began with a hopeful look with two days of school left, and a lovely friend who encourages me to make the most of it.

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there are a number of things to excite me about november

1. receiving my copy of russh in the mail
finally
2. finishing the last few exams i will have in a
while
3. feeling like a princess at formal
4. feeling like a child at schoolies
5. summer is almost here

let's begin it with the best intentions, so that anything bad that may happen, will seem less than horrible.

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a little memory of my brother and i; sparklers are fantastic!


well hello again, and after the last few days a very happy hello it is. i left you in a hurry eager to begin my weekend and get things rolling, and although of to a slow start they finally did with great results.

friday afternoon was spent carelessly travelling from one place to another to organise the people that would help me enjoy my weekend and to pick up some much needed items also. it was then time to head into town, and although i had atleast five hours to kill, i ran into a number of different individuals that each helped me pass the time away.

the night began with the usual sushi and green tea and a look in almost every shop atleast twice. some entertainment from a live band was enthusing as my boredom grew. it was just after taking a seat to have a much needed rest that i finally got a message that told me i was no longer alone.

my company i had been waiting for and laughs had finally joined me for before going to the halloween party, and so we went off to find capes, inevitably everywhere was sold out. so moustaches it was. walking up a million stairs because my friend had parked the furthest away he could seemed like hell. then again, i had to get changed into my costume in the back of a moving van, but that was okay i guess.

a little uncomfortable and very roly-poly.

the night just went up from this point, with many laughs, running into people i had not seen for a while and people i did not expect to see either. a sure fire joy. there was a gumby, a scoobydoo, a seth rogen and lots of maids, but it was all worth it t see the people i had. drinks and other substances made my mind stand still, and little memories have remained from then. singing at the top of my lungs and dancing till my feet dropped off. loosing and then finding people that were at the same place, it was all in the atmosphere.

it was 2am before the pumpkin hit and the carriages left, but it was all well worth it. commandeering a friends bed was good, and waking up to a fantastic cup of tea was grand.

the saturday was spent waling around, chatting and planning for the next night although i had mine already sorted. top floor in the city saturday night then georgies party.

top floor was to be smiled at to say the least, with bands such as the ailment, aversions crown, dead set and cross the lips of grace. one dressed as a taco, one a spoon and some trash along the way. it was a good night. and to see some close friends was great also.

then it was to head to georgies, with eager part go-ers and more fun ahead. another long night and another lot of sailor moon pictures all well worth it.

not very much sleep all weekend as left me feeling as though i need to do this more often and get used to It, though i do not know if i will. thats all for today, i think im going to spare the rest of my thoughts for school work. what a bore.

goodbye lovelies.