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hello and sorry all the same

i have been neglectful, with a busy life of work and outings, interests and disappointments.
ut the main things going on are that im having fun and im care free. i still miss some of the people i am very close to, and the new people i am meeting are equally amazing. there is more in this life for the rest of us to share, then to have it all alone.

the last days have been spent working, and now i have a day off. friday was a very nice start to the weekend, talking to those which i previously 'hated' and catching up. watching law abiding citizen, which is an incredible movie. the way it is made is remarkable. a quick chat to dad about staying out that night and then a ride to levis. saturday was an ill start, literally. i felt horrid, but by midday i was okay, and we headed out. leading to eagleby to see some friends play. attempting to sell merch and just hanging out with people was good.

for those of you who were not there, my name is now kate. if josh has not informed you already. a line up of dead set, misouri breaks, time has come, forget not the silenced and others. it was very enjoyable. i saw some friends i have not seen in a long time. then we had some troubles, but got over them. we headed to claytons house, but did not get there until early morning. not nearly enough sleep and then work the next day was surprisingly easy...

now levi has gone to stay with a friend, its upsetting not having him with me :(
today is boring and rainy, but it is nice and cold

070

have you ever had those mixed feelings about someone, you had yet to meet? as much to say, you heard a story, with a negative perspective on the individual, and the first time meeting them was a little awkward.........

that happened to me this week. though i didn't mind and it wasn't a bad story, but just a way of acting it still bothered me. it feels better though now, i had fun and in a way grew past it. im not the person who enjoys drama in the slightest, in fact i tend to avoid it at all possible costs, but its okay now.

the past few days have been painful and long, with not nearly enough sleep, and a migraine that just will not disappear. its a gruelling process, to say the least. but the days have been fun, being silly, watching fireworks, seeing friends. its good to know that you have people that care all the time, and some strange conversations may occur, but they are always memorable. watching friends almost tear each other apart, and regrettably hearing of one that almost lost his life. it has been eventful.

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i dont know about the rest of everyone, but right now im waiting for some guests and some to return from a pick up. im excited and happy as anything. in my new french cotton dress from noosa and sipping some wine, things are great. the tunes are rolling and my heart is racing. bring on tonight!

068

you know those days where everything you eat seems to make you nauseous, you constantly feel faint and everything hurts? well that has been my day today.

but despite that i thought i would recollect my time at noosa with my family, which admittedly i never wanted to do in the first place, but i am glad i did.

it started with a short drive of an hour and a bit, to the noosa heads riverside, where we stayed in a holiday apartment. it was lovely. hastings street was a regular visit for shopping and time killing, and i went to atleast three different markets, which were all pleasing. and the finds were even better. i saw my dad act like a child at times yelling and doing voices, and my family together completely for the first time in ages.

it was great to be in the sun, and see some different cultures, that seemed surprising.
not the best way to survive on a vegetarian diet, which was hard. but i survived well enough. may i just mention, raw energy juice is simply amazing! and the pizza capers i had to eat all the time was great too.

my brother and i would race along the beach at night, and go search through all the washed up things. walk along the river and just talk for ages.
waking up and listening to sia almost every morning on channel v, with a lovely cup of tea and toast, i wish i could continue that tradition forever.

lets just say, theres still sand in my vans

though as good as it was, i missed my partner dearly, and a very memorable drunken phone call was not suffice. though the foolishness that came from the other end did make me laugh. 'meow like a pussy cat' i guess it comes with being so irrevocably in love with someone, but who knows.

the day we left i was so excited to finally get home the next day, i willingly woke up at 4:30 am to get on a train for numerous hours, and meet him half way as some would say. the feeling of angst and enormity lifted only to leave one of the best feeling i have ever felt.

not surprisingly he stayed in my big empty house with me for the night and we did not rest until early morning. talking, smoking, hugging and embracing. catching-up as you will. i realised how much i missed him, i really did.

but today, back to normality, work and rest, sickness and transport.
day after day after boring day....

067

here are some great times from the coast, that must always be remembered

"be sure to tell everyone you ate at the best restaurant in queensland"

066

so the last few days have been amazing, getting to spend time with some of the people i am closest to :)
sunday night an unexpected visit from friends and surprisingly getting to see my boyfriend was lovely.
we ventured down the coast monday morning and had lady gaga, britney and numerous other pop artists played song by song. it wasn't as bad as it sounds. three days by the beach and a lovely dinner at siam orchid, burleigh heads. oh the food was amazing, and the lady was so cute telling us how they got best restaurant in queensland, it was all lovely. a very big happy birthday to ashleigh, lauren and jarrod who all turned 18 this day, and were the reason for our great time.

after alot of drinks and alot of photos, a late night walk on the beach meant we met some strange people, and even some fire-twirlers, very lovely indeed, and intriguing too. they showed us their style and us a little tipsy, watched in awe. a late night of dancing, noise complaints and drinks up late, between the seven of us, was so lovely. all laying in the same room and talking until early morning was pleasant to say the least.

tuesday it was a whole beach day, tanning, gossiping, sharing and a little burning. times of drinks and two bottles of glorious wine.going for a look around, getting lost in robina taking a friend home and even more smiles were shared. we headed down to burleigh for dinner with some of the best chips i have had, ever. surprisingly, we managed to survive on much less sleep, and i got a little tan. it made me very happy. a phone call from my boyfriend and some surprise cigarettes from a friend were all lovely. kings was a working progress in our little less than perfect state of mind at the time, but still lovely indeed. then the truth and dare began. a little childish, but still fun and amusing, three of us were made run from the rooftop pool to our room, barely clothed.
whilst the four of us most daring flashed the world outside our room, which was most of mermaid and nobbys. the view was amazing. tits out for the boys, or just for the fun of it.

wednesday we packed up and shipped on home, to where i later met my dearest friend, and we shared a long and lovely hug. i love him. we met in west end, which i have not visited in a long long time, but am becoming attracted to. the culture was amazing, and a little vegetarian/vegan cafe was the place for lunch. oh it was delicious.

last night was horrible, and i became angry and upset.
today is much the same, but atleast i had levi there to hold me and hug me better.
good day to those getting to do what they want, to the rest of us good luck.

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wow, i have literally had the best last 5 days. they have been an absolute ball.

beginning with the op shop favourite place, wynnum where i spent way too much money, and then a series of events which were just lovely.

the next day was work, but it was fun. and i had a good time.

we leaped and bound to mater hill, and then i further went to search for a friend of mine, but all in all was alright. listening to endless Queen tracks with jesse on the way home was great.

then i had some friends come over, courtesy to the organisation skills my boyfriend has, i was joined by jesse, bryan, jack, taylor, dave, lachlan, milly and rosario! we all got a little it drunk and we all had an amazing time. just hanging out, singing and being friends, like good old times.

it was once my dad got home, and i was intentional to keep my dirty habit a secret that i asked my boyfriend to come sit with me in the backyard so that i may have a cigarette. willingly he finished his conversation and joined me. i guess i ahd been thinking aout it for a while, but i was in love with him and i was sure. the mildura mixed vodka i had in my system relieved my nervousness and lt me say to him that i did. instantly i saw him smile the biggest smile he ever beared before. and replied with the same thing. i was insanely happy.

there were some moments when i felt a little dizzy so i went and lain in bed by myself, and just thought of it and smiled. as the night grew on and on some kids went home and other slept, where available. just as i was about to fall into a world of slumber i hear a knock on my window, which was my rother at 2am in the morning. and had to let him in, regrettably. he talked and talked and talked to us as though we didnt need sleep, and were some form of vampires.

the next morning i hated him for it.

last night, i ventured to cleveland to see some friends play, and catch up with others too. it really was a great show and i had alot of fun. the best thing was definitely the payouts on the scum that appeared to be there when clearly not wanted by most people.

064

being a girl can just be so great.

after a normal routine of strong coffe and two vegemite toast, a quick check of the internet and then catching an over priced bus ride to where i need to be i worked, and then had alot of time to kill.

first i got some food, gorgeous vegetarian penne and a large sprite. i decided to go to the library, and look through some old books, i found a number of fashion books that intrigued me, and then i found one book called naked. its a collection of true tales of infidelity and adultry, and all in all is too intriguing. i cannot put it down.

i think i will go do that now, read some more that is. i cannot wait to be paid tomorrow! $50 vans and sandgate op-shops here i come.

063

its fine to live so peaceful
never knowing or hoping
defeated by disappointment everytime

surely regrets could never
make up for the lost hopes
then again they both exist together

the feeling of regret from
time becomes sorely lost
not sure what i could mean, confused

when i completely give
myself to you dearest
that is if you ever could understand

062

it is true, that sometimes the simplest of things can complete you the most. like no matter how much you see the person you adore or love, you always get those little butterflies in your tummy, and no matter how used you are to things happening, they can still surprise you. that has been like my day today. monday, and the first one of 2010.

a while ago i found a photographer called stephen j. penry, who has an amazing talent to sketch the weirdest and most wonderful things, much like the werewolf above. i fell in love instantly.
you can see more sketches similar to this here: http://jpenry.com/

today i got up way too early. sleep deprived to say the least, it was more like a zombification.
you see, i was very tired last night, but 28 shades came on, and even the homeliness of my own bed couldnt condemn me to slumber. not until very early this morning. which lead to me snoozing my alarm atleast four times, and almost not waking up. once i had managed to crawl from what seemed to be the comfiest place on earth, a good shower and strong coffee fixed me up straight away. and then after singing some favourites at the top of my lungs in my empty home, i caught the bus to see the boy that has me in awe over him. i also noticed this morning, bus prices went up................

but after spending $9.40 to get a daily, i decided no more money today. and it actually worked! i get lunch paid for, and it was lovely indeed. though sitting on a bench chair, and a creepy drunken elderly man being escorted into a police van right in front of us, wasn't the best thing.

friendly greetings, and good laughs never cease to make me smile, nor does everytime someone gives me one of those admirable looks, for whatever i'm doing. a trip to skatebiz and a win to our tafe v uni debate was inevitably pleasing. as was my boyfriend finally getting a communication device.

now i sit in my empty house again, a little disappointed i do not get the chance to indulge in the punch tour tomorrow or wednesday, with a homemade cheese pizza. deliciously satisfying.

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HERE ARE SOME SCHOOLIES MEMORIES

i think to almost any school leaver, its really amazing to experience the schoolies week. and the amount of people you run into is unbelievable. from having our door smashed on the second night, to underwear parties with girls in our hotel. dancing for the hotel across from us, and telling them they had no chance, having everyone in our penthouse for a party, getting way too drunk, the kebab shop for raves at 3am. sitting on the beach for nine hours, with a dear friend of mine, who is now my boyfriend was the best and most romantic thing i have ever done, it was amazing. the sun was never too hot, the drinks were never enough and the laughs were always endless. one conversation of ours was written on paper, piece after piece. surprisingly having people i know stay in our hotel, and discovering the godliness of frozen mashed potato. i miss it all.

an amazing week for sure

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HELLO 2010!

well, the start and end of my 2009 has been quite a journey, so lets start at the beginning.

31st december i woke up with my lovely boyfriend and got anxiously ready for the day ahead, it was finn's birthday! we somehow conjured up the power to convince taylor to drive us there and had a few hours with some great people. it was a day spent laughing, eating pizza and listening to alternative styles of music, and was all interesting just the same. between the twenty of us, it went from a little friendly rape, to wearing a blonde dancing wig and 2010 sunglasses. the day was lovely and time flew by.

it was surprising to see some unexpected friends of mine turn up to wish finn a happy day too. running around and piling onto a public transport bus was surely a little shocking to the public that shared it with us.

once we hit the town, we scavenged to get what we needed and were frightened by a homeless man telling us almost his life story. i mean, we weren't listening, go away! so annoying. so three of us headed to my humbe abide and proceeded to drik ourselves silly. that wasn't before we nearly smashed the bus window in trying to communicate with a friend through glass.

the cheap drinks poured, and the rich sanity that was our normality slipped as the poison entwined with our blood. next was the antics that came, planning a foursome 'apparently' and just being silly. it was such a laugh. we walked to our friends house not long after that, and eventually our real party began.

from five of us, to around twenty, the new year came fast and loud. fighting over the right channel to see the countdown on and winning was a triumph indeed. then the 3, 2, 1 lead to a mass of yelling and kissing in the small room we were in. after a second or two, te race was on for the first nude of 2010.

it came down to shoes or socks. and socks one, just. the two boys must have a convincing body because more and more followed until we were running down the street watching fireworks and waving down local traffic.

the night went on very late, and ended around 5:30am for myself. thank you no hang overs!
life is swell

the first day, at home, sleeping and exploring.
the second day, back to work to hear stories and have finn and levi over. a night full of halo and green street. made it complete. plus the coke and grain waves.

amazing.

now it is the 3rd of january. i already love this year and i am talking to marshall, hi marshall.