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electric patent black dress; 80's store

wow! today i have a good feeling in my stomach. i will be spending time with my grandmother to go and look at lots and lots of very intricate and beautiful dresses. i cannot wait!

on a different note, after having a horrible end to me weekdays last week my weekend has cheered me up again! friday night was definitely the highlight with a number of outgoing fans joining each other at the princess theatre to see some great musicians play. deez nuts, intrenches, blkout, miles away and antagonist ad were all fantastic. i even found a new love in blkout! they are fantastically diverse.

bus trips filled with laughs and a lot of persuasion to get my friend to cut majority of his hair off, paid off with the best result. it looks wonderful, and was mostly my doing! but after returning home, i got to settle in for a great weekend with family and lots of delicious food, haha.

a late night came after that, time spent chatting to wondrous and intriguing people. i could talk to for hours on end to some of them, and still be in awe and deepest attention to the things that are being said. the ending of final destination to my day was tops. but it kind of sucked that i had to get up after 2am and turn the television off, not only that, i had to clear off a bed and then remake it so i had a place to sleep.

saturday was a lazy day, with no work all weekend! i tried on alot of dresses today with my father and my grandmother there. it was a little fruitless. but thats what today will be for too!
afterwards i managed to escape the clasp of my family grip for a few hours, and got to see some lovely people in town. it was fun as always.

sunday nothing of interest happened. i did however discover a video blog on youtube which is quite intriguing, and very talented. the appropriately named VEDO is a video blog by two boys levi and matt of 'video everyday of october'. everything from random clips to the most influential instrumental clips are to be marvelled at. check it out!

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homemade little black dress; hello vogue


today i am very agitated. yesterday, people who i thought were my companions decided to let the whole world know otherwise by yelling things at me across the room, most of which comments directly applied to them and not myself and most in which were not true. humiliated and upset, the rest of my day had been a blur, but i do remember working and trying to be 'cheered up'. it people like that i dont have time for or really care much for, but to the type of people who tried to cheer me up, thankyou.

it is now 9:50 am, and i am not at school, i was too tired and i would rather not be looked at by a million pairs of beating eyes as i walk by. though i have had a realisation that things are coming up so fast, and its going to be amazingly unforgettable. so here i am at home, ready to go and adventure the places i know before heading to the sike your mind tour tonight with deez nuts, antagonist, miles away, blkout and in trenches. that i am very excited for.

when i get home, my grandparents will be here and that is very comforting, i love them to bits. not seeing them in such long intervals really isn't nice at all. and then all my weekend plans begin. dress shopping for formal and hopefully finding something, bbq's and the beach on sunday. almost as good as those lovely messages you receive some morning without knowing. the ones that just make you instantly smile

for now, lets leave it at have a great weekend, and a great day. i think i will.

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plaid blazer jacket; wynnum days

i am very pleased to say that this morning i feel great. mornings usually bring disappointment and sluggishness, but right now i am good and raring to go. a 'the glass is half full' day! last night my womanly urges kicked in and i actually slaved for three hours and cleaned my room top to toe, it has never been this clean and i dont think i have one worthless thing now.

also, the memories and trinkets i found, i never knew i had anymore bought a definitely smile of surprise to my face. many of them things i had not seen in a few years because they had been hidden in a box or elsewhere. truly remarkable.

today, is going to be a long day. from one learning class to another, and then to work for the man, i just cannot wait to serve all the scum that prowls my shopping centre of a thursday night, it will be very boring to say the least.

fast food has never been a favourite of mine, and it worries me that people can depend on it so literally and need it. with so many of these outlets readily available to us, it no wonder we are the fattest county in the world, we have earned that badge of honour with self-damage and reluctantly, not caring. its silly to think that people can blame others for their own mistakes and their or misfortunes.

anyways, buses await. bye.

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PATRICK WOLF

for those of you who have not heard of this individual, he is one of the most outrageous and indifferent people i have ever heard of. reasearch him now! the english singer-songwriter from south london is remarkably talented and handsome in most respects. he plays a number of different instruments including ukulele, piano and viola. he successfully combines the sounds of these instruments with electronic sounds to create a beautiful masterpiece. it would come naturally to such a lad though, beign born into such a creative family. he left home by the age of sixteen and followed his dreams willingly with little to no money. the only funds he would live off were those he made busking ina string quartet called maison crimineaux described as a noisy trio built on destructive ethics around white noise and pop music. my favourite thing this man has ever said would have to be from the london paper when he wa asked about his sexuality: 'in the same way i dont know if my sixth album is going to be a death-metal record or a children's pop, i dont know whether i'm destined to live my life with a horse, a woman or a man.' it really does show you how different people can be, and how minds can work in weird ways...

search him now

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very old hand me downs; love you mardi

finally, my computer decides to comprehend what i have been trying to do. the silly invention for over an hour now has failed to load and process, but now it loves me again. i think my raging and constant trying has helped to make the computer rethink its actions.


on a happier note, my day has been lovely and because sport has ended i went home early! it was truly great. my mind, however, has been clouded with wondering thoughts and curiosity after my personal advance last night. i have never ever in my life had the courage to admit to someone how i feel about them, unless they have made a move first, and for the first time i bit the bullet, swallowed my fears and became terrified. but i did it. i think it turned out well, im not exactly sure, but im no longer carrying such a burdening secret. people that were chatting to me gave me the motivation to do something i would never have done before, and i thank them for that. otherwise, i would have never said a thing. though i am a fool.

besides that, tales of betrayal have filled my day, and support has been the only other thing on my mind for my dear friend. with such a cruisy few weeks left, excitement is riding high in the air between us all, and fear at the same time. i am fearful that after such a long time of routine things will become blurred when i dont have it to fall back on any more. but hopefully i will pull through then, and for now. i will just follow that path that has been laid before me.

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longs tank tee and crochet scarf; both great melbourne finds

today will be my first day back in term four as i am a cowardly person, and i fear to say alot of what i feel. that being my worst personal trait. though yesterday was not all a waste, i got a lot of stuff done in the few hours i was home being bored, and i talked to some lovely people also. it really does surprise me how many people can actually be in the same situation or a similar one to me. as for last night, the same people i always tend to chat to engaged me in conversation again, and it was terrific. everything from i will be a good mother to guessing a birthday date and so forth. i really do enjoy these conversations.

what i really had time to think about last night though, was that people tend to have nothing kind to say to me and this made me very distressed. people are just rude in general, and then there are the few who will give you a nice comment or take the time to care, and they are the ones the world needs more of.

in conclusion, just kidding, i have school today and am not really looking forward to it that much. have a better day than me, you probably will anyways.

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SOMETHING THAT HAS EXCITED ME

is knowing that i have little to no school days left in my calendar, and im heading into last term.
its very very exciting and im getting more anxious by the day as two big events draw closer.
hopefully i go well in everything

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BUY ME SOME

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THE ART OF TRICKERY

fine shimmer shirt/dress; paddington, bear!

it is happily that i say, i have had my fun and its time to slow down. this weekend passed has left me lethargic, yet with many a memory. the fun of it all began on thursday night when a gruelling walk led a friend and i to our destination of the funniest night of my life, we even got some nudies going around! though it was a bit upfront...

a very late night, and early start of rushing, because our lift was already here meant there was no time to be wasted. next thing i know, i was sitting at a bus stop getting ready there. turning up to work too early left others bedazzled as to why i was there. straight after a quick trip home, the rush began again. i missed seeing my bestfriend for her birthday, but still had her card and her hugs to give. that was a bit disappointing. however, seeing other people i dearly missed was a suppressant to the problem and they shared the hugs instead. giving up on searching, i made my way to the train station to join the rest of the group i would chill with that night. so much excitement and so much teen angst, we were in for a ball.

and so it was, a night of laughs, long walks to fast food, chatting with strangers, silly yet entertaining moments and so much more. levi's house was the perfect place to enjoy each others company. friends i did not expect turned up by the load making it much more enjoyable. scrounging more that 200 dollars for alcohol was a grand achievement too. drinking was not on my cards for that night as a lovely friend and i decided to walk to the fast food place closest to our situation. this was at least 20 minutes walk away, but we did it anyways. i swear i have never seen anyone eat so much food in one sitting and still be fine, it was incredible. some other gross boy behind the counter kept staring at me as if he had some chance of getting to know me, sorry but i don't pick up in hungry jacks. little to no sleep, and being attacked with tickling hands made it a great night.

cleaning up was the only option in the morning.

waiting that morning for one of my favourite bands to play was so very hard. so anxious, i couldn't sit still. running into so many companions and others that would be sharing the music with me was great. BREAK EVEN have proved yet again, to be amazing live. they create such an atmospheric way that you become enthralled into the song and want to move. it is true. cleaning the wound of a friend, a little too over-enthusiastic was definitely a highlight, even if a negative one. becoming envious of a friend for his purchases of an album i am very in love with was also upsetting. a close friend and i fooled the like of so many people by holding hands and being us really, with people questioning out relationship with each other, it was quite a laugh. though after the ear pleasing from skyway, unconscious, word up and break even it was time to head to the other venue to see mourning tide! another great show which was very cut and paste as they told bands to stop because of timing. a tad ridiculous i must say.

the morning of sunday came, and so did the weariness. though i still managed to fix my friends hair by shaving it to a single blade. it is much better now and better looking. nana naps and coffee helped me through the day and left my night time open for chats and recollections alike.

today i am faced with a challenge, school and be raged at or no school and boredom. stupid decision of a nose ring. looks like boredom is the one i will choose.

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floral high waisted shorts; valley markets stalls are tops

wow, in a rush again. i think my life is going way too fast right now, i need to slow down and leave m,ore time for important things like rest. otherwise, like today i sleep in and am late for work. it was not that great. anyhow, everything is great, im making some choices that im happy about!

a very large weekend that begins tonight, with no extra time will mean that this is my last post for the week, and inevitably will leave you minds a little bleaker for the next 3 days. so i will say now that i hope you have a great weekend. tomorrow after waking up in a draft whirl of hungover people i will work and then head straight to see my bestie for her big one-seven, that after a long amount of waiting has finally arrived. i cant wait to hang out with her and ten head out and have some fun times all weekend.

im really keen on saturday mostly, getting to finally see breakeven will complete my weekend! if you have not heard of them, search them now! then heading to samford to see another great house party gig, full of skates to the servo to get late night snacks and some awesome hangs, where you can only join us if your hood is up! i really am so, so excited! but i hope i will be able to talk to some certain people too, i miss their conversation.

i will most probably come back with some great stories and even better vivid memories. so once again, stay safe and have fun!