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such hard decisions have been laid for me to choose
leave to another state with the person i love so much
or have my heartbroken and most likely never see them again

it is the first in which i lean towards, inevitably
as i could not bear the demeanor of the other

it saddens me quite greatly
though sydney isn't that bad, and after a few months it will be changed to my favourite city of melbourne, so i'm down with that
it's unknown what will happen to what i have here now though outside this relationship
friendships will crumble or completely obliterate
my family will be so far away

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if you let everyhting negative and stingent in your life go away
it really does turn up milhouse

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an absence of mind and vulgarity of figure two things that will never pass through my life i dearly hope as things always seem to perk up for the best and others fall away with the passing days it's strange how things become prominent, really another day down, this ones beginning

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some of us now when right is wrong, others are selfish greedy bastards i need to rethink things some are now bad ideas, mistakes waiting to happen divulging under the covers

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