I hate this world, for hating me.
for today and the last few months, i guess this rightfully fits. every things skips me over to find something better and more established, i feel like a failure, and i feel like nothing is inside me anymore. i hate it, i don't want it, and i want things to be different.
archive usuals on a friday afternoon, followed by dinner with my best friend in the entire world, vapiano's, essentially. then surrounding my self with the tempest to rob all hotel cards at the sebel, for obvious reasons. yet it's still not satisfying, it's all a game plan, and i'm the one set to lose.
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Where are you right now?
thinking, too much as always. hoping for better times etc.
Are you bored?
i'm content
What day is today?
today is monday
Are you happy?
not overly, not underly
Do you have a lot of friends?
i wouldn't agree with that, aquaintances mostly
Who do you tell everything to?
probably demi, she's like my sister
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
no
Do you miss being a kid?
oath, i do
Who was the last person to call you?
believe it was demi
Who was the last person to text you?
monika
Do you have any tattoos?
not as of yet
Do you have any piercings?
holes in my ears and nose
Do you have any regrets?
not so much, as of things that i've learned from, it all made me what i am
When was the last time you were drunk ?
at the archive two weeks ago
Do you enjoy sex?
stupid question
How often do you have sex?
not very often
Do you wish you were somewhere else?
i wish i was in a parellel universe in which life was easy and everything wasn't a problem
Do people like you?
no
Autobots or Decepticons?
autobots for sure
What is usually your first thought when you wake up?
fuck, already
Which bad habits, if any, drive you crazy?
moaning, and whining and people who do the throat clearing thing
List 3 of your best personality traits:
personally,
i think i'm placid and a good person to talk to
an i enjoy having a good time, and make for a good time equally
List 3 of your worst personality traits:
i cry when i'm stressed out
i over think stupid things
i fail at most things i try to keep right
What's the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
facial structure, facial hair and build
What personality traits do you look for in a partner?
genuine, honest, affectionate
well presented, good grammar, well spoken
What's your favorite song of the moment?
persist - beautiful
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everything ends, I've come to realise that.
vastly, no matter how great anything seems to be, nothings perfect, and it could topple like game of Jenga at any point in time.
i was happy, exuberant. not only with myself, but about myself.
now, there's been a time warp and I'm back to square one.
loneliness.
self despise.
humility.
boredom.
disgust.
confusion.
next time I hope things stick, I'm quite sick of this world and the mind fucks it keeps giving me.
I'd like to just become happy over a period of time, and have someone continuously share that with me, grow with me as per say. just one wish, because, time is the biggest let down of all.
vastly, no matter how great anything seems to be, nothings perfect, and it could topple like game of Jenga at any point in time.
i was happy, exuberant. not only with myself, but about myself.
now, there's been a time warp and I'm back to square one.
loneliness.
self despise.
humility.
boredom.
disgust.
confusion.
next time I hope things stick, I'm quite sick of this world and the mind fucks it keeps giving me.
I'd like to just become happy over a period of time, and have someone continuously share that with me, grow with me as per say. just one wish, because, time is the biggest let down of all.
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