11.2.10
7.2.10
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im unecessary
im complatent
im slowly dying
i dont stand out
and i don't make big impacts
but all i know, is when your not here, i dont sleep as
well. im in a constant state of terror and bleakness. i dont feel safe, even if
neither of us is awake, its like im untouchable.
077
so i know i have failed to keep up with this lately, and i'm sorry.
its just a matter of no camera and not wanting to steal pictures everyday, so i have kind of kept it on the down low. anyhow, i'm sorry. camera will be back tomorrow, and so will i, with new and exciting things.
on the plus side, two months with my boyfriend the other day. i worked all day, but got a big surprise while i was on the phone to him the other night.
part of it went like this....
next thing he walks through my bedroom door, i dont think i could stop saying what the fuck for about 15 minutes. oh well.
its just a matter of no camera and not wanting to steal pictures everyday, so i have kind of kept it on the down low. anyhow, i'm sorry. camera will be back tomorrow, and so will i, with new and exciting things.
on the plus side, two months with my boyfriend the other day. i worked all day, but got a big surprise while i was on the phone to him the other night.
part of it went like this....
L- yeah, i'm at dads tonight
E- okay, i will see you tomorrow though,
yeah?
L- yeah. hold on babe, i have to hang up to let myself in,
i'll call you back on the
home phone.
E- okay babe, love you, bye.
L- bye
next thing he walks through my bedroom door, i dont think i could stop saying what the fuck for about 15 minutes. oh well.
1.2.10
075
about five minutes ago i found out a very special girl to me was moving to the other side of the country. i'm going to go cry now. we are chatting about our memories and plans for the future, i'm happy for her, but so sad she is moving also. i will miss you beautiful milanka gold!
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today i woke up.
i had bed hair all day.
i said goodbye to the boy i love.
i talked to a very close friend.
i had a cigarette.
i cried over silly things.
i sipped strong coffee.
i indulged in chocolate.
i did nothing.
today i wasted my day away.
i had bed hair all day.
i said goodbye to the boy i love.
i talked to a very close friend.
i had a cigarette.
i cried over silly things.
i sipped strong coffee.
i indulged in chocolate.
i did nothing.
today i wasted my day away.
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this day was surprising, and it was fun too. i just wish i had a million dollars for all the things i wanted. thank you crazy cat camera lady
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